Hi! I'm Lucy :)
Trying to find ways to procrastinate in life!
WARNING: IF FOLLOW, THIS BLOG MAKES NO SENSE AND MAY CAUSE SEXUAL FRUSTRATION!

To those who have been trying to keep me alive: thank you ever so much! I owe you my life (literally)…

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6 hours ago
Anonymous asked: to do wonderful things that you're very capable of. Give it time and you'll find that it was all worth it. I'm starting to see that now and I know you will too. PLease know that I think the world of you, that you are loved and appreciated, in my thoughts and prayers. Please tell me you're alright! <3<3


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I think I’m alright now… Thank you

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7 hours ago
Anonymous asked: and you are so beautiful. Right now youre fighting yourself but also fighting 'for' yourself. It's difficult and indescribably but I swear, you can overcome everything that you are given. I have faith in you, babe. You're going to out in this world, you're going to have so many adventures, meet new people, try new food, get lost in a different country but end up finding the best place to watch the sunset. You're going to create and recreate yourself over and over again. Give yourself a chance--


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I think by talking to those who have been messaging me, im giving myself that chance to stay alive

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7 hours ago
Anonymous asked: no you don't you choose to live for your family


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My family will be fine over time

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7 hours ago
Anonymous asked: it's not pathetic at all but you are STRONGER than you realise. we both know you can make it through this


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We can assume that im stronger, but we cant know until the end, I guess…

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7 hours ago
Anonymous asked: Hi Lucy, I just wanted to come by and tell you that I know where you are in life. I was there. I thought about suicide, I thought my life meant nothing. I fought that for years but today I can say I'm looking forward to my future. When I was were you were I didn't know what anyone could say that would make me feel better. I still don't have words for it. But please know that when I thought I couldn't go on, I did. You can do the same, you owe it to yourself to keep fighting. You are worth it--


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Then, why don’t I feel worth it?

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7 hours ago
Anonymous asked: what you have to loose. what you have to loose are two loving parents and a loving sister. can you even begin to imagine how you would feel if one of them died? what you have to loose is a bright future. if you're dead you're gone. that's it. forever. there's absolutely no going back. You loose YOU, your skin, your bones, your eyes, your lips. they don't exist anymore. gone. you loose your future. it's a couple of months recovery, over never waking up again. you choose living


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I choose purgatory, for now anyway…

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7 hours ago
Anonymous asked: I wish I could hug you but I can't but I want you to know that I will always be here for you. please don't leave


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I guess that im still thinking and weighing my options. Pathetic, isnt it?

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7 hours ago
Anonymous asked: Hey honestly I'm feeling the same as you right now but I don't know what to do


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Think about what/who you have to lose. Think about who/what you’ll miss. Weigh out your options with that in mind. Let me know, k?

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7 hours ago
Anonymous asked: Bit of a stupid question but are you okay now? Please please don't kill yourself I just want to say that things should get better and suicide isn't the answer xx


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I don’t know if I’m perfectly stable, im just confused. Sorry if that doesn’t help… It dont do me any good either

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7 hours ago
Anonymous asked: thank god you're still alive


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Yea… Im still alive… Just weighing my options right now, really.

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8 hours ago
Anonymous asked: please please please i beg you not to do anything to yourself!!! You would miss so much wonderful stuff thats going to come! Imagine you will one day meet one special person you might start a family together and you will celebrate christmas together in a lovely home with possibley little toddlers around... You dont know whats going to happn in the future but i want yoi to be there to experience it!!! Please give yourself another chance in this life!!


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I dont know…

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8 hours ago
Anonymous asked: I LOVE YOU PLEASE DONT LEAVE


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I can’t promise that….

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8 hours ago
Anonymous asked: hey hun, killing yourself isnt the answer, trust me i almost commited suicide two years ago and i am so happy that i didnt go through with it because as cheesy as it sounds it really does get better, please hold on and stay strong i love you


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God, it sounds so selfish of me to want to die and leave behind my sister and my life but I don’t believe I’m strong enough for this anymore

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8 hours ago

I guess right now I’m writing this as possibly a goodbye forever message…
This year has been extremely difficult and stressful for me and I dont think I can handle anymore of it. I know by dying I’ll be leaving behind a sister and a pair of loving parents and great friends and family, but I can no longer pretend that I can keep living my life without wanted to end it everyday. I’m not 100% sure I’m going to end my life tonight/morning but thatse all that has been on my mind for months and months. So, if I dont get a chance to blog at all tomorrow, just know that I love each and every one of you. Thank you for making my experience here on tumblr such a wonderful one.
Love Lucy

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9 hours ago
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